Dear Wife

Dang, even looks like her 🙂

Dear JC(aka Mrs.9911),

I got a good idea from another blogger that maybe I should tell you some of the things I want to say, but I just don’t say.  If you are reading this its either you got a txt/email from me because I am dying or you “accidently” discovered this blog…lol.  In which case, I would suggest you “accidently” exit out of this browser until you have been properly notified via txt/email, or coroner.  I thought about password protecting this page but I don’t want to go through hassle of figuring out what the password is when I might only have few minutes to alert you.  Besides, nobody knows me here and the ones that do venture out this far is probably going to be a good caring person, no need to worry about ID scams or Nigerian scams..lol.

These are the blogs that meant the most to me as I was writing them, because it just reminds me of us and what we are all about.   I’m sure you will remember every single one of them, and perhaps laugh with it or cry with it.  I Love you, you ma #1, my sweetie pie, & root cause of all my stress and grief, the kind of stress and grief caused by too much loving, caring, and worrying.  How did a trash eating bum like me hook up with a model from front cover of a woman’s fitness magazine? I honestly believe you got a raw deal in this marriage…lol.  Enjoy 🙂

1.  My best moment as a father and a husband:

This one chokes me up everytime, babe.  I thought our engagement moment was the best, until this event happened.

2.  I am so poor that I am “po”:

Never really told you about my past, but that’s because I didn’t want you to know your one and only husband got beat up for wearing girl’s clothing to school, and eating food out of trash cans.

3.  Am I a bad father? 

Sorry I let you down on NUMEROUS occasions, but sometimes I needed to go down my own path and create my own way to participate with the family.

4.  Help, missing my darn wife…again:

How can the love of my life cause so much grief and stress? lol

5.  3bears and Goldilocks story:

Dang our kids are so funny.  Why is our wee bear so angry all the time? lol

6.  Can underwear outlast a marriage?:

Thanks for getting me new set of underwears after the incident.

7.  Hunny bunny sweetie pie…Ebay…:

Sorry I made you confused over topic of drug addiction, smoking addiction, alcohol addiction, etc…  I really wanted these bicycle wheels and I guess I didn’t want to disappoint you.

 8.  How is a man do die?

Hopefully, this is the way I would/have die(d).

9.  I’m a bad man

I’m so sorry for ruining this in 2012

 Love ya,

Papa bear

  1. April 22, 2012 at 12:04 am

    Even when you’re being sappy and sweet, you make it funny. I’m sure she will happen upon this blog some day before you die, and she’ll be glad you created this section just for her!

    • April 22, 2012 at 1:18 am

      you really think she’ll find out? I like the fact I can say things without her knowing, because it feels “unplugged” and raw..lol

      • April 22, 2012 at 1:50 am

        I don’t want to jinx you, but I think you’ll slip up and say something one day…lol….if you’re anything like me, at least, that’s what will happen

        • April 22, 2012 at 11:09 am

          you mean kind of like using hairspray instead of deoderant in the morning? lol.
          I’ll see how long I can keep this covert operation going. I did leave specific set of instruction for her to follow, in the beginning intro. I think she will honor that…lol.

  2. purpleowltree1234
    May 11, 2012 at 6:00 am

    Wow, This is incredibly loving and vulnerable and open. I do believe you are AWESOME!! And I do believe your wife is incredibly special too, and very lucky. 🙂 It’s a joy to be in on your world. It’s a joy to be a witness of your heart. I don’t think it would do any harm at all to let your wife in on this while you’re alive. I think she might melt into a puddle of tears of joy, but it wouldn’t do anything but strengthen your bond with each other. Your Blog. Your call. 🙂
    Love from Rach

    • May 11, 2012 at 2:58 pm

      I am horrible when it comes to tears and emotions, I just lock up and start looking like a deer in a headlight. I have a history of just secretly disappearing out of a room if a woman is about to cry or get emotional. Only time this is okay is if it involves my kids 🙂
      My wife berates me for being the least romantic guy on the planet, and I want to make sure it stays that way. Maybe its along the same level of weirdness of why I CAN’T STAND celebrating my birthday. I actually go as far as stirring up problem on the day of my birthday, just so everybody is in a bad mood. I love everybody else’s birthday, but I just don’t want to acknowledge mine. Strange, isn’t it?
      My wife will know about this blog when the time is right 🙂

      • purpleowltree1234
        June 4, 2012 at 10:24 am

        You are such a character! 🙂
        The birthday thing is so interesting to me. Partly cuz I HATE mine too, but because I so far see no reason for you to hate yours so much. There clearly is a reason or several, but I’m yet to find it. You are a bit of a mystery. 🙂 I like mysteries.
        Your wife will realise you are the most loving husband Ever when she eventually reads this page. It cracks me up that you don’t want her to see your emotional or romantic side. Such an engineer! Haha!
        What would you IDEALLY love to do on your birthday? Maybe you should aim for that instead of what is making you hate it so much so far.
        Would it be totally wrong of me to ask when Is your birthday? I won’t wish you a happy one, don’t worry about that! I’m just curious. I’ll be sussing you out. 😉 Mine’s in April, so I’ve done it for this year. 🙂
        Love from Rach.

        • June 4, 2012 at 3:51 pm

          I’m hoping I never find out explanation to my b-day issue…lol. It was actually back in May and I angered my wife for no reason at all. I hate to do it, but its something I feel like I gotta do. It hard to explain. My ideal b-day would be spent alone playing video games.
          I think its great if my wife never finds out about this website 🙂

  3. May 18, 2012 at 6:59 am

    Kudos to you Chris. When a man truly loves a woman, he isn’t afraid to hide it. What a great example you are to other men who might be afraid of being vulnerable and open. HI-FIVE!

    • May 18, 2012 at 10:39 am

      oh my goodness, you might need to take back the hi-five…lol. My wife is unaware of this website and I’m keeping it a secret from her. She just has to know I’m the most un-romantic guy on the planet with THE plan 🙂

      Regarding your other comment about nasa, paycheck, and happiness,

      lol, nope, no glamour in nasa. I guess that was pretty obvious.

      There’s a difference between being happy with your paycheque vs being happy by what you do to get it.

      True, but if it was that easy everybody will have a job they love and get paid for it. Most realistic scenerio will be, he’ll have a mediocre job with mediocre pay, just like majority of the people around the world…lol. Why not brace for the most probable result and be pleasantly surprised when the outcome is in your favor?
      My perspective on work, money, and happiness is the finish line(retirement). Do I do something that is super high stressful, with bigger payout, in hopes of retiring at age 50? or do I take the least stressful route and work till I’m 60-70? There is definitely a tradeoff with either decisions, and its a family decision. My wife wants us to retire early so we can truly be happy, so I am going to torture myself everyday 🙂 yippeee!. But that also means my wife has to deal with my crankiness every freakin day till we are 50..lol. Some days when it gets really bad, I look at her and I tell her she is INSANE for putting up with me and I tell her she is free to leave me and take everything, whenever she wants. She responds right back and tells me she thinks I’m insane for working so many jobs and keep on ticking. Its hard to be an ass after an exchange like that.

  4. purpleowltree1234
    June 4, 2012 at 10:27 am

    You have a beautiful relationship with your wife, Chris. 🙂 It’s completely obvious you ADORE her. 🙂 I love that!!
    Love from Rach.

    • June 4, 2012 at 3:51 pm

      I sure do, even whem I’m angry with her 🙂

      • purpleowltree1234
        June 4, 2012 at 4:04 pm

        As my brother says, anger and love aren’t on the same continuum. You can love someone totally and still be angry at them. 🙂
        I’m glad for you that May is over.
        Love from Rach.

        • June 5, 2012 at 12:35 am

          I bet my family is more glad May is over than me…lol. Wife is a real trooper because I know I made her very very upset that morning…lol. She was so mad that she almost blew off the “b-day celebration”
          It is one of the strangest feelings in life, when you love sombody so much and yet get soooooo angry at them at the same time…lol. You need to see Greg and give him a big hug 🙂

  5. summerstinydancer30
    December 30, 2012 at 1:45 am

    This is so sweet! It’s rare to find a man who openly adores his wife this way and you both are so lucky to have each other!

    I wish for more blissful days for both you and your wife, Chris!

    • December 30, 2012 at 11:06 pm

      I do CRAZY love her, but I haven’t told her any of this stuff yet. Still keeping all this to myself till the right time.
      Thank for your sincere comment here, this is my most personal page 🙂

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